Thursday, February 10, 2011

Two? Seriously?

My little boy is two years old, and I'm a little... I don't even know what the word would be.  Confused? Flabbergasted?  Where did the time go? What happened to my itty bitty baby? 
I didn't realize how big he was until we were looking at some pictures the other day, and I was pointing out the baby to the baby, noticing that one baby was tiny and the other baby was taking up my whole lap.  We watched a couple of videos, and I remember the moments like they were yesterday.  In one, I was holding a video camera, afraid to move, absolutely positive that he was going to turn over for the first time. Any. Second. Now... And of course he didn't.  I remember being so excited, and thinking of all the people I was going to show, and how I was going to keep this video for aaaaaaaall eternity so that I could remember my baby boy just this way.  And now?  He's accomplished all the goals he was supposed to, from turning over to crawling to running, whether I had my camera or not.  He went from babbling to random words to sentences.  I'm so proud of that little guy.
So I have to take a step back and wonder - is this how God feels about me?  He's known me since before my conception, and saw all my major milestones.  For Him, though, they were marked by different things.  He remembers fondly the first time I ever prayed.  He remembers the time, as a very small child, I invited him (shyly) to please come live in my heart and clean me up.  He remembers the moments, as I grew, when the fire of passion in my heart ignited and grew.  He remembers when I committed my life, my whole life, to His service.  He remembers every journal page, every tear, every single whispered prayer. 
The best part of this story is that I don't know the next step.  When it comes to my being a parent, I'm pretty sure I know the next battles that lie ahead.  I know we're on the cusp of potty training and big boy beds.  My son doesn't.  In the same way, I have NO idea what's coming up next in my life with God!  What a comfort to know that He does.  And he's standing by with His video camera.

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